Something hit me last weekend.
I say “Yes!’ a lot more now than I ever used to! I mean, I am just plain willing to do more things now.
It dawned on me when my husband and I were getting ready to go appliance shopping. It was a gorgeous day and we needed to test drive some new appliances. Neither one of us really wanted to be schlepping from store to store. Half kidding, my husband asked if I wanted to go on the motorcycle.
I was like “Yeah- let’s do it!!” It turned out to be a fabulous bonding day for the two of us!!
See- now that may not sound like a big deal to you… but when you don’t have pants that fit you- it’s a big deal!! In fact, not just going for a motorcycle ride- going anywhere! I remember those days. Hated that feeling!! Any social affair required meticulous planning on what to wear. What do I own that fits? What is most flattering? What will hide my a##, butt and arms and still look fashionable? Refusing to buy new clothes because I would be damned if I were buying an even bigger size.
If I was asked to do anything at the last minute- that required real clothes, I was not a happy camper. In fact I was pretty pissy- and it showed. I would be annoyed and put out or just make up an excuse to not go. Inside I was just pissed at myself- but to my poor husband, he must have thought I was the biggest B…!! OMG it was an internal struggle of epic proportions! ‘Seriously, you want go out?’ *sigh* ‘I don’t know…’ ‘Who’s going to be there?’ Inside I was thinking ‘What the freak am I gonna where!?’
I would try on all the usual suspects- knowing full well they weren’t going to cut it. Left them strewn about and heaped in a pile…by the time I was done I would have half my closet on the floor and all of my drawers had been rummaged through and all skewed about. Then I had to deal with hair and make up, but there was no time left! I mean it would take FOREVER to find anything remotely appropriate!! So off we would go and I would be so uncomfortable in my skin that I was just completely miserable!!
How about those weekday mornings when you just can’t find anything to wear to the office… Another episode! Can we talk about vacations? How about holidays? Birthdays, weddings, funerals… Seriously-all of it! It was a nightmare! I wanted to live in yoga pants and oversized sweatshirts.
Being able to pull clothes out of the closet and just put them on knowing they are going to fit is one of the most liberating feelings about losing weight and getting healthy. Once I got healthy and fit, I noticed that I show up differently in the world. I am more confident, pleasant, relaxed and open. I am more comfortable and caring. It shows in every area of my life and now I say ‘Yes!’ a lot more. I am just plain willing to do more things now.